Self-portrait as Roundabout Mannequin

I am crude in the daylight,

a sepulchral figure

cloaked in khaki dust,

my mouth swilling

city grit as dirt pinwheels

through the ribs

of an iron bedframe.

 

By afternoon,

my shadow falls

twice as long.

 

At night,

vampiric in the moonlight,

my jaundiced skin glistens.

Headlights crisscross

each shellacked follicle

& the puckered sheen

of my brain.

 

//

 

Rain dribbles into the crater

where my left eye

once nested & gutters out,

rinses the grubby indent of my navel

& gravel-dented calves.

 

Looted by the elements,

sometimes a body fits

amid the bric-a-brac

but nowhere else.

//

At rush hour,

I parse the landscape:

each yellowing shirt & stiff skirt,

every motor roaring

through my hollowed torso,

every rubbernecker —

                   or is there nobody?

 

Am I nobody

                   amid the din?

//

 

Newness has its own

bittersweet pathology.

 

I am made of skin & seam

& apprehension.

 

But my heart has heft,

still blooms under this ruptured blue,

aches in the electric air.

 

Stuck in this outdoor pew,

a love story could unfold.

 

//

 

The sun sets

through my absent eye.

I glow, radiant

as any wound.