Self-portrait as Roundabout Mannequin
I am crude in the daylight,
a sepulchral figure
cloaked in khaki dust,
my mouth swilling
city grit as dirt pinwheels
through the ribs
of an iron bedframe.
By afternoon,
my shadow falls
twice as long.
At night,
vampiric in the moonlight,
my jaundiced skin glistens.
Headlights crisscross
each shellacked follicle
& the puckered sheen
of my brain.
//
Rain dribbles into the crater
where my left eye
once nested & gutters out,
rinses the grubby indent of my navel
& gravel-dented calves.
Looted by the elements,
sometimes a body fits
amid the bric-a-brac
but nowhere else.
//
At rush hour,
I parse the landscape:
each yellowing shirt & stiff skirt,
every motor roaring
through my hollowed torso,
every rubbernecker —
or is there nobody?
Am I nobody
amid the din?
//
Newness has its own
bittersweet pathology.
I am made of skin & seam
& apprehension.
But my heart has heft,
still blooms under this ruptured blue,
aches in the electric air.
Stuck in this outdoor pew,
a love story could unfold.
//
The sun sets
through my absent eye.
I glow, radiant
as any wound.